taking control of my fitness

This past month I have gotten serious about my fitness and my health. I’d been slowly jumping back onto the workout routine, but after seeing some taped audition footage of myself, as well as photos wearing a swimsuit, I knew I needed to commit. I’m fortunate that my metabolism is relatively fast, but it just can’t keep up with the whole “eating literally everything I want and being the laziest human on Earth” lifestyle I’ve been living my entire life; thus my weight has fluctuated over the years.

Because of the fluctuation, this isn’t the first time I’ve said “I’m going to lose weight” or I’m going to get really fit!”, but something about this time felt feels different. I don’t know what it was/is, but I’m tired of making excuses. You can’t achieve something if you don’t do the work.

Beyond vanity purposes (which aren’t helped when your profession requires you to be on camera or on display – for lack of a better word – most of the time), I was tired of feeling lethargic and bloated, of my chronic back pain, of being too weak. None of these things were going to change if I didn’t just do something about it.

I’ve started off slow. If there’s anything I know about myself, it’s that I have a tendency to burn out (INTROVERTS UNITE). I don’t believe in deprivation, and I don’t believe in pushing myself to breaking points.

So what have I been doing?

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I’ve flirted with ClassPass on and off the past year. When I initially signed up for it, I was so excited. I could go to hundreds of studios for one low price. I could have variety in my routine. I could literally force myself to hit the gym because if I didn’t, I’d have to pay extra. But what if I didn’t sign up for anything? What if I let anxiety dictate my decisions not to sign up at a new place? Well, then I could make excuses not to go. Whoops.

I finally said screw it and committed full force. I’ve been scheduling my workouts ahead of time (you can schedule 4 at a time) and NOT CANCELING. I’ve been trying new studios. But besides just hitting up any old workout class, I’ve been hitting up workout classes that I ENJOY. My most recent endeavors include aerial silks and tumbling – two fitness routines I am so, so excited about and actually look forward to going to. WHAT. Never thought I’d say that. And because I want to get better at those, I have to build strength (especially in my abs and arms), which only continues to motivate me to work out.

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So this time around, it’s different. It’s different because I’m taking control of my health. I shouldn’t be in the prime of my life feeling fatigued and achey and weak. It’s different because I have goals to work towards beyond measurements or weight on a scale (by the way, I never ever weigh myself). With these classes I have new skills to learn – to challenge myself – new goals to reach. In my younger days I loved tumbling. I thrived on learning new tricks, and hey, why can’t I do that as an adult? I’m able to set goals that have nothing to do with how skinny I look. It’s different because I’m listening to my self. Can’t do cardio in the early morning without feeling like I’ll puke everywhere? Then I don’t. Even if cardio in the AM will burn more calories, I save those blood pumping workouts for the evenings when I have more energy (because let’s be honest, they’re not the most fun). I am doing what works for me and being active however I can. I’ve been exercising almost daily, and it’s actually been the thing I look forward to every day (that monotonous 8-5 life, yo). If I’m not getting some form of movement in, I’m left feeling gross and unsatisfied. This is all huge, HUGE news for me.

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I can’t even count on my two hands the amount of times I’ve told myself I’m going to take control of my fitness. Often I’ll start off strong and then digress after a couple weeks. But you know what? I don’t want to go back. I want this to be my lifestyle. And I’m so grateful that ClassPass has given me this opportunity and the push I’ve needed to take care of my body, to experience new and engaging workouts, and to have fun doing it. Last night I went to a hip hop class (praise the heavens, this is what I’ve always been searching for), that was in a rooftop loft (pictured above) with a live DJ – ARE YOU SERIOUS?! Even just a month in, I am feeling so pumped about this journey. Just good things all around, y’all.

Of course this would all be for naught if I wasn’t taking care of what GOES in my body as well. But I’ll save my journey with nutrition for another post. 😉

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*This is in no way sponsored by ClassPass. I’m just a huge advocate and really recommend checking it out if you need workout motivation. If you’re on it and want to try a class with me sometime, hit me up! I’m currently on the hunt for a partner to try acro-yoga with. 😉

-wonderland sam


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actress/texan kickin' it in los angeles. always searching for my next pizza. cia agent in another life.

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