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This photo has nothing to do with this post, but if you haven’t met them already, these are my garden friends : Marco, Aurora, Leonard, George, and Fred.

As I’m gearing up for this festive season, I’m trying to focus on being present and appreciative – to soak it all in. I’m pretty hardcore about the holidays (if you don’t already know this, YOU DON’T KNOW ME), and I don’t want a minute of it to be wasted. Lately I’ve realized (for the millionth time) that my phone/social media is the BIGGEST TIME SUCK. Seriously, I have much better things to do than scroll aimlessly on my phone, and nothing is a bigger reminder of that than “checking it for 5 minutes” and instead looking up at the clock and realizing 45 minutes have gone by. WHAT IS WRONG WITH US? I for one don’t want to look back on my life and be like – “oh, don’t you remember those hours wasted staring at a screen?” (p.s. TV is not included in this because I’m a huge fan of it and the storytelling and the characters and I’m an actor so I get a pass on this one OKAY).

Anyway, here are the fun, productive, cherished, festive, wonderful things I can do this season instead of being on my phone.

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Read a book. I’m about to embark on the last of the Harry Potter books, and my heart is so sad/excited/wants to read it as fast as I can but also doesn’t want it to end so WHAT DO I DO.

Like, clean my house. I’m a ball of anxiety most days and having a messy home does not help it in the least bit. It magnifies it. I always feel most calm and relaxed with my mind at ease when the dishes are cleaned and shoes are put away and the rug isn’t matted with dog hair. Why can’t I remember this? Mental note to clean more.

Craft. The 8-5 grind is real y’all, and I haven’t made much time for anything else on the week days. I miss making seasonal crafts and want to find time for it like, now. I was gifted money towards a sewing machine, so hey, maybe I’ll order that today. I finally started on my Project Life album for last year (kind of sad I don’t have as many photos in it but also kind of not because it can get really overwhelming). On that note, does anyone know of an app that prints Instagram photos? I need to print them straight from my Instagram feed, not my phone, as I don’t have all of them saved anymore.

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Be there for my dog. This is a real thing that needs to happen more. I feel bad enough as it is that she’s home by herself all day every day now. I need to make more of an effort to spend time with her (get those walks back in) and not just be okay with sitting around the apartment with her…nearby. I’M SORRY KIPLING.

Exercise. Ugh, the eternal struggle. I get on such good kicks, and then I fail miserably. I hate that my longer commute is getting in the way of this, but no more excuses.

Go on a walk. This encompasses those last two things, but really, I need to get my Fitbit replaced (again. ugh.) and get those steps instead of being a lazy butt. The weather is (crosses fingers) cooling off, and I LOVE evening walks this time of year.

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Bake autumn treats. I did get around to baking some sandwich bread a couple of weeks ago. And banana bread. And now I have a billion apples in my fridge waiting to be done up all autumn style, yo. So I want to spend more time baking – but less time eating because I also want to exercise and get back in shape? The conundrum of life, y’all.

Call my mother. I seriously didn’t talk to my mom for like – 2 or 3 weeks. Which is absurd. We were on separate trips and then I kept forgetting at work and at night I’d waste my time doing nothing else.

Plus one million other better ways to spend my time. Because just seeing the light emanate from the phone screen is getting me all riled up these days.

I think I’m really just having a hard time balancing my life. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, but I’m pretty much an all or nothing type of person. I do it a lot and then burn out quickly and then do nothing. I sound pretty awesome, don’t I? Anyway, I need to get over the fact that I wake up early and get home later and have less time because if I just MAKE THE TIME, there will be time. Kind of. At least more of it.

That’s it for today – just a random post of random musings. I finished a roll of film so will share that as soon as I get it developed (we went apple picking!). We’re also getting away this weekend for our anniversary (3 years this past Tuesday!). Time flies (especially when you waste it on your phone).

P.S. Check out this series that comments on the whole phone thing.

P.P.S. Yes, it’s staged, and yes the phones were physically taken out before the photos were snapped. And yes, it would look the same if the people had books in their hands, but that’s not the point because people don’t stare mindlessly at their phones every second of the day and even if they did at least they’d be learning something and stimulating their minds and therefore bettering themselves.

P.P.P.S. I am often one of these people, and that’s why I want things to change.

-wonderland sam

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actress/texan kickin' it in los angeles. always searching for my next pizza. cia agent in another life.

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