I have always been the by the book, do-gooder, never take any uncalculated (not a word) risks, worry wart. Always. And I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it on this blog, but I suffer from a lot of anxiety. Even I know it’s absurd to get anxious about asking the drive-thru employee for a new soda when mine tastes weird, but I can’t help it. It’s something I actively try to work on, but there are times (usually at night) when my mind is going on full anxiety-panic mode. But anxiety (driven by fear) is not conducive to a happy life or a prosperous career.
So along with my new year mantra to LET GO (of fear, of anxiety, of worry), I want to take risks. I’ve noticed that those who are the most successful are not only confident in themselves, but they take risks in order to reap greater rewards. I’m going to believe in myself and my abilities because I know I’m capable of a whole lot more than I give myself credit. I’m going to take risks because honestly, what is the worst that can happen? I’ll live. And maybe I’ll even accomplish something great.
With this new year I signed with a new talent manager, who is already getting me out for auditions, for which I’m entirely thankful for. I also just got hired at a new job…a job I never thought I’d be able to bring myself to do again. I have to tell myself that even when I don’t want to do things (which is almost always), I need to force myself to do it anyway. Because I hardly ever regret it.
I think that’s a good way to live life when faced with choices: will I regret doing it, or will I regret not doing it? I think I’m going to ask myself this quite often this year.
With a new job and a new play, I’ll be sacrificing time at home and time with my husband, but with my mind trying to steer me away from all of this, I need to tell myself that it is all for good. That it will all lead me towards accomplishing my goals and dreams.